observing oneself…


I wanted to do a ‘piece of research’ in which I attempted to ‘observe myself doing it.’ I have been interested in patterns in nature for many a year and thought I would drop ink droplets onto paper to see what patterns might emerge, if any. The following are 3 grabbed images of this research. I have used images here because it is necessary to maintain the complex formatting: read the first section, upper left. This shows how the original tape recording was transcribed and then thought about and re-thought about so to speak…


a further piece some way in:


When I had finished the whole experiment I made a series of knowledge claims which were quite extensive. Here’s a small example:


Well, that’s what I did…

challenge: observe yourself making a cup of tea

(or similar)

gattegno buddhism and critical theory..ah well…

Gattegno maintained there were 4 stages in learning:

1. there is something to be explored

2. the exploration of this ‘field’

3. practice in this field leading to mastery

4. transfer of this knowledge to wider fields

The Four Noble Truths of Gotama Buddha, the cattari ariyasaccani are:

1. an unsatisfactory state exists

2. how this ‘suffering’ arises

3. how to end this ‘suffering’

4. the means by which this ‘suffering’ can be eliminated

In his book ‘The Idea of a Critical Theory’, Raymond Geuss describes a typical critical theory as being ‘ a transition from an initial state of bondage, delusion and frustration to a final state of freedom, knowledge and satisfaction.’ Further, he defines a typical critical theory as consisting of three parts:

1. the belief that a transition from the initial state to the final state is in fact possible

2. the demonstration that this is in fact necessary

3. this transition can come about if one follows the particular tenets of that critical theory.

Well, at least, Gattegno, the Buddha and Raymond Geuss have in common the idea that…


but it is clearly not going to be a push-over

huatou: is it possible to change?

the ultimate zen assessment – pseudo object oriented reality…

Warning – the analogy to object oriented programming is FALSE

(if you want to see the point of this post go here)

Everything you and I perceive takes place in the mind. Your senses provide information to your mind. Your mind becomes aware of what you call reality due to information supplied by your senses which is then subsequently processed according to your established interpretative neural networks. These networks are evolved through awareness and analysis of these perceived conditions during your evolution as a perceiving, conceiving being… i.e. whatever you have experienced and then ‘made of’ these experiences.

Clearly, this involves your total historical and psychic environment. It is then clear that ‘this certain something’ that ‘you’ perceived was an interpretation of an interpretation, and was only an image of ‘the real thing’ whatever that was. This certain ‘real thing’ cannot be known absolutely. That is why great masters such as HUANG PO pointed out the ‘error’ of conceptual thought processes:

“There is no  “self”, no “other”. There is no “wrong desire,” no “anger,” no “love,” no “victory,” no “failure.” Only renounce the error of conceptual thought processes and your nature will exhibit its pristine purity-for this alone is the way to enlightenment.” HUANG PO, Wan Ling Record 24, p.86.

This ‘error’, is merely the knowing that what is perceived as ‘the truth, the Absolute Real Reality,’ even in its brute external form, as Searle would describe it, is NOT IT ITSELF. It is only ‘one interpretation of it’, and this is all we CAN KNOW. We cannot know ‘IT ITSELF’, because for us there is no ‘it itself.’ All we can know is what we perceive and then conceive through interpretation. This is relative reality and is different for all beings. This is ‘our world’… This is ‘my world’, this is ‘your world.’ This is why it is said that we ‘create the world.’ This is why there are as many cities you live in as there are perceivers of the city. There is not ‘a city’. There are no unique events.

Clearly there are ‘events’ at some level. There are earthquakes, there are floods. There are divorces. There is love. You will be hurt by the master’s stick. Yet you are the perceiver. You ‘create’ your specific take.  You create ‘your’ world. The external, the unknowable, is the CLASS which is knowable to us only as a fragment or ‘taste’. The specific, our individual  realities, are the INSTANCES.


huatou: I am the world

one last time concerning ‘tables’ with a little question at the end…

I can’t do any more of this ‘tables’ stuff, but I am asked about the issue so much…

Look, here’s a ‘tables’ square, slightly adjusted:


I’ve removed the 1x and 10x sectors. 1x is trivial, 10x needs special treatment.

If you fully appreciate the flip rule you can forget the grey airbrushed section.

The square numbers in the blue-green squares are a special beautiful group, well worth studying. Many patterns and much al-jebr live here…

The rest are in 8 columns, from 1 to 8. Add up the numbers from 1 to 8 in your head and it’s 36. [I did 8×9 and halved it).

The orange numbers can be found by doubling from single digit numbers. (Conversely by halving from the products).

The blue by treblings from single digit numbers.

There are 4 spaces left, 5×6, 5×7, 6×7, 6×9.

double 15, the two primes, 5 and 7 make 35, double 21 and double 27.

Study George Cuisenaire’s original product wall chart:


You can see all the doublings.  Look carefully.

These products, the numbers in black, form

MILESTONES in the unknown territory to 100

By studying them as numbers, as we have previously discussed, their inner structures will become apparent, thus lessening the awful stress on memory so prevalent in today’s schools.

In addition by briefly studying the Primes to 100 it will become apparent to the little yellow belts that many numbers are rich in factors and many are not. They will generate a ‘feel’ for the rich numbers, learn their inner structures by familiarity and learn, as an aside, the so called ‘tables’ relevant to that number.

This however takes


even in the minds of  teachers, never mind the administrators


because even you and I dear reader


huatou: ‘Am I free?’

the disk of Odin


(One of my super duper extremely high res images from ‘The Book of Enlightenment’)

‘“Is it gold?” I said. “I know not. It is the disk of Odin and it has but one side.” It was then I felt a gnawing to own the disk myself. If it were mine, I could sell it for a bar of gold and then I would be a king. “In my hut I’ve got a chest full of money hidden away. Gold coins, and they shine like my ax,” I told the wanderer, whom I hate to this day. “If you give the disk of Odin to me, I will give you the chest.” “I will not,” he said gruffly. “Then you can continue on your way,” I said. He turned away. One ax blow to the back of his head was all it took; he wavered and fell, but as he fell he opened his hand, and I saw the gleam of the disk in the air. I marked the place with my ax and I dragged the body down to the creek bed, where I knew the creek was swollen. There I dumped his body. When I got back to my house I looked for the disk. But I couldn’t find it. I have been looking for it for years.’

Jorge Luis Borges ….‘The Book of Sand’